if you start a siphon with your mouth you’re actually incapable of feeling fear. once you’ve accepted that fish water will get into your mouth, regardless of how quick you think you are, you are no longer capable of being afraid.

Once I was cleaning my fish tank in an attempt to get out of a cycle of on and off dissociation (cleaning things helps lol) and I started suckin on the siphon and like the bitch she is my brain just said “it’s a straw. Drink,,” and I gulped that shit down and realized what I did only a moment later.